My. I have felt so alone. I was "born again" at 14 yrs of age in 1972. For me, it has always been about Jesus. And somewhere along the ride I got pulled into conservative evangelicalism. I have since rethought my theology. I'm a universalist. And don't believe in the "penal substitution" theory of atonement. I hunger and thirst for God's kingdom. Love, grace, kindness, understanding. I value humility and gratitude, two traits sorely missing in our society and in fundamentalism.
Words can't express the loss and confusion I still feel. I'm a member of an Episcopal church. God is still present and very real to me. But I miss the passion, the outreach, the kids. My church is complacent. I've yet to find a progressive church that is robustly alive and enthusiastic about Christ. I miss evangelicalism. I miss having a certainty about the correct world view. I miss the comraderie that comes from being with those who share in that world view. I often feel sad and lost.
Lily I am so moved to read your story. At the same time, I feel like there is so much more to be said. I wish I could take you for a coffee or a drink or a walk in the park. I've felt so much of what you've described here. Hugs to you. Please reach out for conversation and company.
My. I have felt so alone. I was "born again" at 14 yrs of age in 1972. For me, it has always been about Jesus. And somewhere along the ride I got pulled into conservative evangelicalism. I have since rethought my theology. I'm a universalist. And don't believe in the "penal substitution" theory of atonement. I hunger and thirst for God's kingdom. Love, grace, kindness, understanding. I value humility and gratitude, two traits sorely missing in our society and in fundamentalism.
Words can't express the loss and confusion I still feel. I'm a member of an Episcopal church. God is still present and very real to me. But I miss the passion, the outreach, the kids. My church is complacent. I've yet to find a progressive church that is robustly alive and enthusiastic about Christ. I miss evangelicalism. I miss having a certainty about the correct world view. I miss the comraderie that comes from being with those who share in that world view. I often feel sad and lost.
Lily I am so moved to read your story. At the same time, I feel like there is so much more to be said. I wish I could take you for a coffee or a drink or a walk in the park. I've felt so much of what you've described here. Hugs to you. Please reach out for conversation and company.